Just an update on my crazy life and my crazy crushes! :)

So today guess who I met? My precious, beautiful, and absolutely PERFECT newborn baby boy cousin. As some peoples lifes end, others begin! He has beautiful big eyes and a perfect nose. AND im not using my crutches anymore. I wobble a bit when I walk, but Im doing really good. :) Now the moment we've probably all been waiting for... my love life. So Im almost fourteen and havent even had my first boyfriend yet. Thats rare. I have the BIGGEST crush on this guy. Im to scared to say his name even though I seriously doubt anyone from my school reads this. But anyway hes super sweet and nice and caring and amazing. BUT he (of course) has a girlfriend. No I dont blame him for liking her because shes gorgeous and funny. Now the thing that sucks is I caught her seriously flirting with another guy. They got really "Touchy-feely" and stuff. It just sucks to see the guy you like be with a girl who seemingly doesnt even care about him. But then again... life can be terrible, rude, mean and all those other things we talked about last time.

Life :)

Wow its been a long time. Im really bad at keeping this posted. Its been so long Ive already gone to California, Fallen down the stairs, tore ligements, oh and yea my friend died. You know what I realized about life? Its great, fantastic, laughing, beautiful, daydreaming, loving, dreaming, hoping, wishing, gorgeous. But it also terrifying, brutal, rude, mean, unfair, crushing, screaming, fighting, hating, losing. Some days are so much better than others. Its like a book or a roller coaster. You twist, you turn, you find yourself falling unexpectedly. Sometimes a new chapter comes when you dont even realize its near, and other times you scream at life. But its always there. Its always fun and always a crazy ride. So even when the hardest things go down, keep moving forward. My friends name was allyson and everyone called her Ally. She was the sweetest person in the world. One day she told me she wanted help to plan her birthday party. I wish I kept that conversation going for hours because that was the last one we had. The next day she went on a drive with her dad and four year old brother. Her dad got upset with her mom and her and took a turn. A to sharp one. The car flipped and everyone in the car had a seat belt on except one. She flipped around the car, cut open her stomach and fell out the driverside window. She was in a coma for 3 days. And during those days I was hoping, wishing, and dreaming about seeing her the next minute. But it never happened. This is what I mean by how life can be completely unfair and terrible and horrible, brutal, mean. But the times we had together were full of laaughterlove, and beauty. They were fun, happy moments I will never EVER forget. Keep moving forward and laughing and loving. Because one day those moments could be the moments that you remember someone by. Or the moments you die happy knowing theyre remembered. Happy late birthday beautiful. <3